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Rita Henry
Rita is an Intuitive Counselor who works with bright sensitive people who are sick of struggling in their relationships and want to make the pain go away. Though her in-person and online intimate healing retreats and one-on-one sessions, she has helped thousands of people quiet the noise, move forward, and make peace with their past and their present, so that they can heal, be happier, and live a life they love.

In order to Love more, it is important to see the big picture and to see the opposite of Love — Fear. Fear is demonstrated in many ways. Did you know that when you or others are angry, the root is always fear? This realization was huge for me. In fact, it required me to review my entire life and to see it in Truth.

As a child, my Dad had major anger issues. When Dad raged on and on for hours or even days, no one had the courage to stand up to him, because if they did he would shut them down in short order. Walking on eggshells and letting the crazy train run the show was the norm in our household. Even though it was rare for Dad to talk about his childhood, as I grew up I began to understand the impact of the volatile environment he grew up in, and how that shaped his whole life. Dad had a black cloud that followed him around and even if it lifted for a bit, we always knew it would descend again. We just didn’t know when.

Dad struggled around the holidays too. He was hard to buy for, but not for the reasons you might think. One Christmas I gave Dad some t-shirts. They were the same as the t-shirts he wore to work every day, even down to the sewed on pocket, but they were new. After unwrapping them Dad barked, “I don’t need any new shirts,” as he tossed them into the garbage basket.
At the time, I was devastated. It took me years to understand that reaction was because my Dad didn’t love himself and didn’t think he deserved nice, new things. My Dad didn’t know he was lovable. When someone extended love to him, their feelings about him didn’t match his feelings about himself, so he completely rejected them.

For myself, I wanted Dad to receive my gifts of love and to love me back. Dad couldn’t receive the love that I offered him, whether it was in the form of t-shirts or acts of kindness, because of the self-hatred and self-loathing he carried. He would lash out at those closest to him projecting his own self-hatred onto others. His rejection of my gifts had nothing to do with me. And yet, for years I carried the conclusion that if Dad couldn’t love me then I must not be lovable. I took it even further and looked for unavailable men to be in relationship with, since that is what was modeled for me. Unconsciously, that is what I believed I deserved.

When we do our work to see the Truth of our lives everything changes. In awareness, we can make new choices and open up to living more authentically. Along the way, as we get more intimate with ourselves, we automatically extend that intimacy within all of our relationships. It feels so good.

As we move into the holidays and a new year, I invite you to do your work to more deeply align with yourself. Experiences of fear of ________ (you fill in the blank), jealousy, hurt, shame, guilt and even hatred can be completely transformed as you shift your consciousness. You don’t need to be stuck in feelings of, “this is who I am and I am forced to live with it for the rest of my life”. Be gentle with yourself as you move into getting to the root cause of the pain you are experiencing. You often need support from another to transform your biggest hurts.

 

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